Relearning What is NEAR My Soul
The worst day I’ve ever had lately is one where i didnt get all my tasks done before sleep — Nemo
Am I choosing to do nothing? Honestly yeah. I was supposed to wake and train before dawn… I haven’t. I had intended to perform a few more guitar practice sessions per week, I didn’t. My language classes, anime watching, ok I’ll stop now before I astound myself at my neglect. Digital life took a hit too. Stader, NEARX? Has my finger been so off the pulse I missed that one? Well… I’m starting to feel it, the time having gone by and me having made seemingly no real progress in it. Maybe that’s just in my head. But I only studied Portuguese twice, Japanese twice, and Mandarin and French less than that. I maybe at best gave my jump rope and calisthenics days 3 sessions tops. My guitar only had an hour of my time, though I did manage to catch up on chores and some IRL labor. So that’s a win right? Yeah, I didn’t think so either. Steady on then, Forest-Lich…
NxP was a simple enough affair of seeing the tasks I caught up with appear on my feed. The dual combo punch of realizing I had not even noticed they had not posted at their expected dates in the first place. Remember that time I regarded how W3 makes you too busy to notice all the threads in the webs we start to weave? There it is, demonstrated even by me. To which I am the same as them and have dismissed the fact with a shrug. They are doing what you, me, and all others in Blockchain are doing… “getting by ‘’. How anyone gets by is none of my business, and certainly not yours(nosey nemo) unless otherwise noted. That said, I really should try to pay more attention to my comrades and their own personal passions when my notifications swarm my anime-themed background. A click and a comment doesn’t take up too many seconds of the day.
Within the Green, I found myself wading through the stream of interested parties seeking me out. not as anything more than an intermediary of course, but still… kinda crazy no? Jabs aside, it certainly has caused me to do many things I’m not generally fond of: reaching out to relative strangers, and asking for/relying on others around me to help with things I feel should fall exclusively on me to handle. I wanted to but then I came to the conclusion perhaps this was the core of my issue at hand: perhaps a lot of the reasons I had so little for things is the time it took mentally to not only plan an attack but then to decide how to carry it out… it is maybe meant to be shared? So I tried, and got responses quite rapidly. Any input is welcome. I presented it to them for their critique, and we have one of them already in pre-planning stages for a mutual discussion on a mutual platform. I’m looking forward to watching this unfold; the process began rather organically. If I may be clear, I knew very little and both sides of this so far have shown faith in the idea. That’s all I need to explore the possibility.
In my travels I also took a moment to look up the pennies I put in markets that grew dramatically for what was a stagnating sense of nothingness in every corner. Then things popped, and popped again. Sparks. Kindles perhaps? Beside the point anyhow. At that time I jumped into my cheddar account, of which had nothing because I liquidated during that winter for personal reasons. NFT staking. New. Nauts, hey I have those. Unfortunately the offer was only 4 days short of ending, which did not at all halt my participation for the sake of the cause. From there I continued on to Burrow where I had more pennies and saw a new logo and found “NEARX” across the screen, more of these unknowns? A possible staking and bridging outlet… I dont have the funding to be able to inquire on the prospects but it has my attention and a tab in the index. Stader….recalling that name. From there I dove back into my social media to find the two names I recalled from it: Ina, and LP. Upon expanding the description I found an extra link: BeKopi. Ina if I recall supports people who identify as women, their creative goals and projects, regardless of background, skin color or location. Ok, I looked it up but if that is that not better than any summary i could make? I believe so. LP? Also new, to me that is… Live Performers(LP) on the metaverse? Ok that is the future of web-tertainment if done correctly in my opinion. And BeKopi, the final link in the puzzle I almost missed out on… well it said more to come. And like that project, you’ll have to wait for me to expand on each of these next time…
So we return and reiterate the central question: am I showing signs of laxity, regardless of circumstances that may be at fault for it? I guess I am guilty; I have to make peace with how little I’m really producing, in the grand scheme of things. I’m not sure how I’ll redeem myself, but I know I have little alternative but to persevere beyond my limited capacities. I’ll try to practice my chords a bit in between a lesson or two of the selected languages I put off in favor of ones I knew more readily. I own it here and now. Maybe some burpees to pump the blood? That sounds way too extra surely. There’s always next pre-dawn I guess. But that doesnt feel as right as doing pushups and static hold between tasks. Lets try that nemo.
Signed,
Woodward Forest-Lich
